tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4178799195729667985.post8362746516253934631..comments2023-09-29T11:08:21.509-04:00Comments on DAVID DUST: My Big Ball Of CrazyDavid Dusthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00348019814971057479noreply@blogger.comBlogger37125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4178799195729667985.post-40202040576878624942009-08-03T22:28:25.731-04:002009-08-03T22:28:25.731-04:00Sending you a big gay hug. No pep talk, just a hu...Sending you a big gay hug. No pep talk, just a hug. Okay, I'll send happy thoughts, too. Hugs and happy thoughts. <br /><br />xo <--- and that. <br /><br />-JimboJimbohttps://www.blogger.com/profile/01410713474695583060noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4178799195729667985.post-40429624666818225392009-08-03T01:21:19.611-04:002009-08-03T01:21:19.611-04:00this is one of the realest posts i've ever rea...this is one of the realest posts i've ever read. i so wanted to comment immediately that i skipped everyone else's comment to get to the option to post my comment. i can't wait to read what everyone else offered but i'm sure it was about encouragement to change and also acceptance of what is. how incredibly you've captured that huge chasm between the two. so many of us are there with you...comforts/escapes may vary but they all serve the same purpose. in the end, you will do what is right for david. there should be no pressure...only to accept yourself as you are. and i am confident that you will :)Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4178799195729667985.post-13601167124907088412009-08-01T19:46:37.052-04:002009-08-01T19:46:37.052-04:00Sorry to be so late in commenting, sister, but I h...Sorry to be so late in commenting, sister, but I have been busy eating my way across Europe! Seriously! Diet be damned!<br />You know I am right there with you, especially about the frikken excercize thing! Gawd, I hate it! <br />The diet thing has been working for me because I finally reached a point where I said: Stop the Madness! I realized I was throwing my life away, and truly committing a slow, excrutiating suicide.<br />Now I get through one day at a time. I try to make a game of it... how many days can I go without cheating. Then, when I do cheat, I don't feel like I've blown the whole diet, I've just lost one round. You might try that little game.<br />I realized for myself that I HAD to find a way to eat less than what I had been eating... I was eating WAY too much, and it really was getting worse every day! Somehow, you gotta wrap your head around how you can make it a little BETTER every day, and you can kick it's butt! Love ya, honey!Miss Ginger Granthttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03494225040016735718noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4178799195729667985.post-5222675774246143202009-08-01T13:12:50.858-04:002009-08-01T13:12:50.858-04:00DD,
I was sad to read about how unhappy you are. I...DD,<br />I was sad to read about how unhappy you are. It takes me about 4 weeks to make the gym a habit & if I miss 2 days I am back to starting over.<br />Remember...you are loved!Stephenhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05967985806955115917noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4178799195729667985.post-75254239701839937162009-07-31T15:17:25.371-04:002009-07-31T15:17:25.371-04:00David Darling,
I, too, had been wondering where ...David Darling, <br /><br />I, too, had been wondering where the 'personal' posts have been. I like them even better than the hottie pics!<br /><br />Believe it or not many of us can identify with your big ball of crazy. <br /><br />But I agree with the first commenter. This is not about food/eating. Its about depression and self-esteem. Find out what counseling services are available from the GLBT Community Center. Seriously, you need to talk this through with someone qualified.<br /><br />Rest assured that I/we LOVE YOU and feel you are worthy of more happiness and control in your life. Make that call, or better yet, walk on over to the GLBT center.<br /><br />XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXMark in DEhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12478832787656152843noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4178799195729667985.post-80002860952307990452009-07-31T13:06:14.599-04:002009-07-31T13:06:14.599-04:00I LOVE you and your big ball of crazy. It will nev...I LOVE you and your big ball of crazy. It will never matter to me how fat or thin you are, because honey, you are smart and funny and dog gone it, people like you! (Sorry, all the Al Franken stuff has been playin' with my mind)Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4178799195729667985.post-27774207542545876082009-07-31T00:26:31.396-04:002009-07-31T00:26:31.396-04:00I second what so many above said . . . I particula...I second what so many above said . . . I particularly <i>love</i> Bob's comment, and <i>please</i> save room for me on the crazy sofa with you and frogponder. <br /><br />Hugz, <br />MMarkerhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15430246788141677762noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4178799195729667985.post-9162998196959231152009-07-30T23:26:23.058-04:002009-07-30T23:26:23.058-04:00But...you don't understand...we love you.
xoxo...But...you don't understand...we love you.<br />xoxoxoxo CharlieBerry Bloghttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12079390231632421561noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4178799195729667985.post-11773273587867772122009-07-30T22:45:05.041-04:002009-07-30T22:45:05.041-04:00Now MAME! MAMIE! I ain't going to preach and g...Now MAME! MAMIE! I ain't going to preach and get all, well do this and then do this. YOU are one of the funniest people who can make me laugh and I love when we spend time together. All I have to say is you can call when you feel down or just come to Philly and we can just hang here at the abode. Buster would LOVE to meet his Auntie Mame. I hate seeing you so upset. So call. All you have to say is "Are you there Mistress Borghese, it's me, Mame!" I'll call you this weekend sometime.<br /><br />XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOX-<br />MaddieMistress Maddiehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02098940220513091207noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4178799195729667985.post-79894393374084777482009-07-30T22:44:43.860-04:002009-07-30T22:44:43.860-04:00I know it's tough, but the guy I met in NYC wa...I know it's tough, but the guy I met in NYC was a powerful person and I admire that. Stay strong, you should get out there and live.<br /><br />You have too much to give us and so much to receiveWonder Manhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16723949771552274515noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4178799195729667985.post-18602924468503987492009-07-30T22:22:55.798-04:002009-07-30T22:22:55.798-04:00Ditto here, too! Dear Darling Nephew David, if a...Ditto here, too! Dear Darling Nephew David, if anyone knows how you feel, I do, and you know that! Thank you, Bob, for what you wrote about walking. It helps me because it's just about walking and nothing else until eventually it starts to happen! My son and daughter-in-law lost weight by doing that and portion control. They were motivated by cholesterol that was too high. <br /><br />It's almost like not thinking about it so much, isn't it? I told my son it was like I'm saying, "I survived cancer and sepsis, so let's see if I can survive a heart attack!" because that's what's going to happen. Does it motivate me? No! <br /><br />I'm going to do what Bob suggested and walk. Then I'm going to make appointments at the gym I donate money to with the trainer because if I write it down, I'll go. <br /><br />You do or don't do whatever you feel like doing or not doing. Eventually you'll walk. Take pictures when you do because we enjoy vicariously visiting NYC. Admitting this stuff means you're getting better. <br /><br />Call me any time you want to! OK?Joyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15718724697267800263noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4178799195729667985.post-75043633105367516472009-07-30T21:51:54.832-04:002009-07-30T21:51:54.832-04:00Maybe you need to go visit Miss Ginger for a coupl...Maybe you need to go visit Miss Ginger for a couple of weeks. She will whip you into submission :o)Ken Richeshttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09425810816600512504noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4178799195729667985.post-44149863928883893622009-07-30T20:59:40.670-04:002009-07-30T20:59:40.670-04:00Ditto Sis...Ditto Sis...Samhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/04563083955389042990noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4178799195729667985.post-9030518439863284952009-07-30T19:49:50.760-04:002009-07-30T19:49:50.760-04:00Thanks for venting.
Fuck working out!!
I wouldn&...Thanks for venting.<br /><br />Fuck working out!!<br /><br />I wouldn't go 2 they gym either if it wasn't for looking at hot guys, and the chance to sneak "gym cam" pics to post. I had some of this problems and was unhappy with my body, then came to the conclusion that the post near perfect hotties everyday was the cause. I'm constantly comparing myself to the guys I post. Fukk that!AGBhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/10847718703542764049noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4178799195729667985.post-17793380604646151192009-07-30T19:48:06.925-04:002009-07-30T19:48:06.925-04:00The whole time reading this post I was nodding my ...The whole time reading this post I was nodding my head because I know those EXACT feelings. If you ever find an answer, pass it on over hear because I will be looking with you! I guess all I can offer is support and a shoulder to whine on because I know where you are coming from.<br /><br />Lots of love!Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4178799195729667985.post-85440250478543111262009-07-30T19:06:35.431-04:002009-07-30T19:06:35.431-04:00Ahh man....I've followed your blog for a littl...Ahh man....I've followed your blog for a little while now, and although I wouldn't say I am a 'dust bunny', I do like wha you post. I disheartens me to think that the jovial person that I imagined you to be is, well is not. I think we all can share in your 'crazy' to some extent. if not with weigh, with any number of things. <br />If I met you, I would give you a big hug, and tell you everything is going to be OK. It sounds simple, or silly even, but that simple act can work wonders on the pysche to start.<br />On the real though...I think you would benefit from talking to a professional. Someone suggested going through a LGBT Center. That is a great idea. Whatever avenue you decide to go - whenever you are ready is a step in the right direction. Talking to a professional is just that - talking; getting whatever it is (and - only you know what it is...) out. You would be amazed at what that simple act can do.<br />I wish you all the best, and send love, and positive thinking along your way man.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4178799195729667985.post-59230331020711915742009-07-30T16:45:00.250-04:002009-07-30T16:45:00.250-04:00Ah, David, I can relate, totally. I'm doing &...Ah, David, I can relate, totally. I'm doing 'good', now, I'm at a good weight, but I definitely have to throw food away, at times. Check out 'The End of Overeating' by Kessler. Don't read it as a way to end overeating (who can believe THAT?!), but read it as an interesting story of how food is deliberately manufactured to trigger insatiability. The guy who wrote it was an FDA honcho and struggled mightily with a suit in every size. The book explains why we truly 'can't eat just one'.<br /><br />I have found that reading lots of fitness blogs helps me. Also, having an iPod packed with get-down songs keeps me working out. And screw all the complications of machines and weights, go straight to kettlebells. YouTube 'em for more info. Seriously. Hire a trainer for four sessions - no more, that would be way to much fricking money for something that you may abandon - and learn 'em. Short workouts.<br /><br />Whatever you do, do it slowly, gradually. Go to fast and you'll get injured. It took me a year to lose my first ten pounds because I refused to throw myself into a routine that I knew was too rigorous too maintain.<br /><br />Start with Skwigg's blog as a fitness refocus. She's doing vegetarian right now and I hate that, but, eh, she's got some good pearls of wisdom in her archives.<br /><br />Good luck, sweetie, I know how it feels to wonder WHERE THE FRACK does motivation come from??? I say go towards the music.Nancy N.noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4178799195729667985.post-76110170787592756982009-07-30T16:19:28.204-04:002009-07-30T16:19:28.204-04:00I was a fat kid. My mom's side of the family i...I was a fat kid. My mom's side of the family is fat, my dad's is thin. So, as a defense mechanism, I decided I would be fat and funny. In the late '80's, I started experiencing symptoms of what would, 8 years later, be diagnosed as Crohn's disease. I lost a great deal of weight very quickly, but I was really wasting away and I was miserable. <br /><br />After I got the disease under control, I kept a fairly normal weight, for a six foot frame, at around 170-180lbs for years, until another severe bout back in '06 required surgery. I was 110lbs at the time of surgery! This left me with an ileostomy. <br /><br />Now, for a gay man with a pre-existing negative body image, the ostomy has been a major psychological blow that, in all honesty, I haven't really dealt with as well as I could. So, I've reverted back to the old pattern of using food to comfort myself and I've gained back way too much weight. I could have stopped when I was eating to gain in order to come back from weighing just 110lbs, but I just kept on eating. Why? I think because I felt so unacceptable (and still do) that I should just look unacceptable too, which is pretty insane when you think about it. <br /><br />After reading all of the other comments, it becomes clear that we are not alone in this insanity. I think a lot people experience feelings of low self-worth and that they don't deserve to be happy and healthy, or to be loved. But the fact is, we DO deserve those things, even though it is so hard to accept it because our brains are wired to believe differently. <br /><br />Every new day gives us an opportunity to start on the path to making things right, if we can only find the courage to do it....and some ibuprofen for our aching knees.Jimmyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11747160195791978461noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4178799195729667985.post-21218675045737031202009-07-30T14:12:39.031-04:002009-07-30T14:12:39.031-04:00I love you and your crazy - but then as we have no...I love you and your crazy - but then as we have noted so very many times our forms of crazy mesh just perfectly...<br /><br />What can I say- its a struggle. <br /><br />And I will now just bug the F^&&* out of you by saying: You are cute as a bug, handsome at any size, funny as hell, compassionate, smart and amazing.<br /><br />I know - you just want to be a skinny bitch- so stop throwing things at the monitor.<br /><br />The whole weight-self esteem-self loathing-overeating cycle is one that I am painfully familiar with.<br /><br />Yes, a kazillion hours of therapy have gotten me to "fake it - until I make it" - god love those behaviorists...<br /><br />Anyway, I adore you and I am sorry you feeling stuck.... its sucks - you know I am here for you with own big ball of crazy just waiting to help you juggle whatever comes your way...<br /><br />kissesRomancehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09902489253812580658noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4178799195729667985.post-87820649294494018942009-07-30T13:34:59.369-04:002009-07-30T13:34:59.369-04:00Dearest Mame,
Ever since I first met you at PSU y...Dearest Mame,<br /><br />Ever since I first met you at PSU you have struggled with your appearance and weight. I'm sure I am repeating a lot of what the others have written, but people love you because of who you are and not what you look like. Everyone has vices and we all need to moderate our bad habits and behaviors to some extent. I think you need to focus on what really is making you the most unhappy as the overeating seems to be a temporary fix to a more deeply routed problem. Most people I know who say they love the gym are probably some of the most self-critical people and they do it to make themselves feel better and it is their escape from the real world. I guess I go for the same results, but I don't love going and do it for the superficial aspects (and some of the guys are hot there).<br /><br />I'm here to listen whenever you want and hugs and kisses are part of the package.<br /><br />Whenever you want to call me or come and visit, you have an open invitation.<br /><br />I miss seeing you and I know you will get past this. Don't be ashamed to ask for help. You are very loved.<br /><br />xoxoxoxox<br />Agnes GoocheAnonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4178799195729667985.post-83427795654167562462009-07-30T13:02:03.319-04:002009-07-30T13:02:03.319-04:00Hey David, did you astrally project into my head? ...Hey David, did you astrally project into my head? We are our own worst critics. Try not to be so hard on yourself (easier said than done)Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4178799195729667985.post-1277463058741959612009-07-30T11:20:39.739-04:002009-07-30T11:20:39.739-04:00OK, I hear you, dude. I have a playground with my ...OK, I hear you, dude. I have a playground with my own particular ball of crazy. I now weigh at least 80bls more than I ever had, feel pretty freakin' old, and would prefer to stay in rather than leave the house. One of the reasons I go to as many music shows as I go to is because I need to get out at times, and it is usually a struggle. Never been to a gym, doubt I ever will. So, I call your crazy, and hope neither of us raises that ante any time soon.Anonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09690597078607161109noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4178799195729667985.post-62692205946388464682009-07-30T11:15:08.324-04:002009-07-30T11:15:08.324-04:00When you decide you can't live the way your li...When you decide you can't live the way your living anymore, your life will change. <br /><br />Good Luck!mikeinbamahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/08044916789275758678noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4178799195729667985.post-55986267705096055762009-07-30T10:54:54.933-04:002009-07-30T10:54:54.933-04:00oh My Tranny....honey, I would love you no matter ...oh My Tranny....honey, I would love you no matter what you weigh, and I think you KNOW this in your heart. But I DO want you around for a long time, sooooo.....ya, walking is good. But who the hell am I to tell you to walk when I HATE to walk to my mailbox everyday?! I don't walk and I know I should. but it's harrrrrd to get started....and the gym? oh hells no. Too many skinny people there, looking down their nose at you. no thank you, I can get that at home for free.<br /><br />I love ya girl. You're my Bestest Girlfriend.....and I'm hugging you right now. all of you...even the parts you don't like, cuz I love ALL your parts.Angelhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06245554563405436101noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4178799195729667985.post-40073588291716903442009-07-30T10:52:01.755-04:002009-07-30T10:52:01.755-04:00Your big ball of crazy sounds like it isnt too cra...Your big ball of crazy sounds like it isnt too crazy at all-- I think we can all understnad and some of us have been there-- or are there as well man... I can totally empathize with you and I think its great you can at least talk about it! It will change-- the time for change will come and it will be when the time is right for you....So hang in there sunshine! Keep up the great post too! I love ya!! xoxoxoRADhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14327199086953530789noreply@blogger.com